And So It Goes

This is a song that I performed with the Madrigals in High School.... also Kev and I like to sing it whenever we get together because he knows the tenor, and I know the soprano parts-- pretty dang beautiful! Right now, this song seems to be capturing a lot of how I'm feeling. Basically I've been hurt, quite badly before. And in the end, everyone is going to hurt you, you just have to decide who's worth it. That's where I'm at right now. I know that letting myself continue to "fall" for Mike has the chance of ending in heart ache. However with every minute I spend with him lately I seem to be more and more grateful for him, more and more happy, and the feelings are going deeper and deeper. I see a future that is brighter than I ever imagined for myself. So this is where I'm at. Do I put my heart in his hands? If he chooses to have it, it's his to break. That is a very nerve racking thing for someone who's had relationship problems in the past! (and it's actually the same spot Mike's at). I am not going to rush things, I'm going to wait for MY heart to tell me when I'm ready to take that chance. And when I AM ready to give it completely to him, maybe he'll be ready too. I'm going to enjoy what's in front of me right now... not hold back, but not push. Let it happen :)

I think I'm going to learn how to play it on the piano :)


In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
As if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows